Tears and Rain

Dear Blogger,

Another day goes by in this little life of mine... Well for you i guess lots have, i haven't updated this in a while.

The last time i wrote i was going to see Sucker Punch with a friend, needless to say it was amazing. Everything i thought it would be and more, i've never seen a movie quite like it, it's brilliant, the undertones of video games and stuff just really make it, and i'm straight and even i think those girls are hot. The film now takes up my wallpaper on my computer, i love it.

I bought the most amazing shoes on sunday in my favorite place in the world - Cambridge. A pair of amazing Irregular Choice Meow boots, they cost me £100, something i have been saving for a long time, the shoes succeded my expectations when i got them, they are the most comfortable heels EVER, the fluffy insides providing comfort and warmth that rivals that of socks, plus they are beautiful, the little cat on the side almost stares into your soul, and the little bunnies on the bottom create such a contrast, even the box is amazing, it's like a drawer, it's covered in pretty pictures, even the wrapping inside has hearts all over it, i absolutely love it, best shoes i've ever bought. I have a thing for shoes, always have. I find it very hard to buy clothes, in fact going into a clothes shop is my least favorite thing to do, i feel really uncomfortable, not knowing what will look good on me, what styles suit me, anything i put on i will look in the mirror and think 'ew', but shoes.. shoes are beautiful, so many shapes and colours and types and fabrics. My obsession began with converses, i think i have 10 pairs? some real some fake, but now i like buying heels and the more extreme the better, i hate boring plain shoes, i'll wear a plain outfit and amazing shoes, thats how i like to do it. When choosing an outfit i like to choose my shoes first and then build an outfit round my shoes.

I'm in a very melancholy mood this evening, i'm not sure why.. I upset myself earlier because i stumbled upon a picture of me and my ex when we had first started dating, while james blunt was playing in the background - never good. I just burst into tears. Since that i've felt really odd, i cheered myself up listening to happy songs but i just want to be quiet now. It's not that i'm upset, i just feel really odd, i guess i feel lonely... Perhaps just tired, i was falling asleep in RE earlier. But i do feel really weird, like i'm not me or something, i don't know it's really hard to explain... I don't even want to sleep but i think i'm going to get to bed soon and just lie in a ball and stare into space... I really need a hug..

I know this is brief but i really want my bed right now...
Night all x
Alice~