Who's Laughing Now?

So today was pretty up and down, i was feeling awful this morning, as i did yesterday, i've had a nasty cold which has played up my asthma and just made me feel terrible, the result of which made me sleep through my alarm clock this morning in pure exhaustion, hence i was late for school. Always a good start to the day i must admit.. So after rushing around like a headless chicken i got myself to school. First thing i have to do when i get there? A timed essay. Great. I kept zoning out while i was writing, daydreaming about all kinds of things, so it's probably awful. That'll please the teacher.. I spent the entire day sneezing and couging my lungs out, especially when we had PE last, in which not only did i have to stand on the side lines in the pouring rain watching the others play netball, coughing and spluttering myself to death in a T-shirt, but also i had managed to bring two completely different converses to wear on each foot, one sparkly blue with sequins, the other navy with ACDC laces, one a size 7 and one a 6. Nice one. This evening has rather brightened up my day however, talking to a friend about how much we want to go Uni, but also because i found out a girl who made my life miserable since i was like 5 is pregnant. I thought this was hilarious. Karma at its finest. I know that probably sounds proper bitchy, but she made my life hell and for years i thought 'its fine, one day she'll do something stupid and then we'll see whos laughing', she's only 17. Bloody hilarious, she seems pretty happy about it though so hey.

Am developing an obsession with Katie Piper, the other day i watched her first 'Katie: My beautiful friends' and i was so touched, yet facinated by it, so i then watched her original documentary and will be watching 'my beautiful friends' religiously now. I think it's amazing what these people have been through, and katie herself looks absolutely stunning, it actually makes me jealous how beautiful she is, she looks amazing. Guess it just shows what you can do with a bit of confidence hey? Too bad i don't have any.. Maybe one day.. But yeah, i've been stalking her website all day, i don't think they've done a very good job of it to be honest, but hey. Thought Simon Cowell was an odd choice for a sponser, but there we go. Some of the people annoy me on that programme though, the parents for example who say "it wasn't my child anymore", and I'm just sat there thinking 'yes it is!! Just because they're burnt or disfigured doesn't mean they've changed on the inside or are not your son/daughter anymore!! If they broke out with acne or something, would you go "oh they weren't my child anymore" bloody rediculous people, just accept them for what they are!!!' Some of the actual burns victim's negativity annoys me too, but then i've always maintained the mentality that it doesnt matter what you look like, also i've got a lot of pride in my scars, especially the one on my chest, it runs from the bottom of my neck to the top of my stomach, ending in a little cross, with a few other scars dotted around. When i was in primary school people used to take the mick out of it, saying i had a worm on my chest (it was bright pink at the time) and i was very self-concious about it. But now i love my scar, i got it from having two heart operations, which saved my life and is a constant reminder to me to live life, because you never know how short it'll be. It kinda makes me who i am, something completely individual to me.

Also obsessed with Jessie J at the moment, i bought her album 'who you are', its so good, every song is completely different, a whole new theme, and style of music, its amazing, i especially love her songs 'who's laughing now' and 'big white room', for completely different reasons, who's laughing now just reflects my childhood, but also gives me hope for the future, that one day i'll be able to turn around to all those bullies from my life and say "who's laughing now??" Like today i guess..
I also like big white room, it's so relaxing but has so much meaning in it, it's amazing.

Look like a wreck at the moment, my hairs a mess from the rain, wearing an oversized jumper and skinnies, tbh i look like a man. At least not as much as i used to.. God that awkward moment when you go through old photos of yourself and think 'what the HELL am i wearing??? i actually thought i looked GOOD?' ACDC T-shirt, baggy jeans, leather jacket, black converses with ACDC laces. I could not have looked more like a man. Even when i cosplayed as one.. Okay i've done that twice but still.

I can't think of much else to say today..

lots of love
Alice~